Podcaster, writer, rabble rouser...
Laura, thank you so much for posting this. I am 30 years old and in recovery from R-AN for a little over a year. I'm so grateful and happy to say that I am doing great. I do have a question though: I've struggled with an eating disorder since the age of 12, but did not begin treatment until 5 years ago. I was told that since my eating disorder began exactly at puberty, that it will be difficult to know where my natural adult weight will fall, and that in the first year or two of recovery, it can fluctuate up and down a bit...which is frustrating and scary! However, I'm dealing with it, which is great. My question is, can myself and my treatment team use the last known weights from age 10-11ish (the last time I was at a weight that was normal and natural for my body, until entering recovery) to determine around where my adult weight might fall? I don't know my current weight, and my treatment team assures me that its "exactly where it should be"...I trust them, but....eek! I'm concerned that I screwed my body up so much, and am wondering if it will naturally fall in tune with its natural growth curve...and if I should even worry about it, or just let things take their course? I'm curious as to what your opinion on this is :-)
BumbleBee,THAT IS WONDERFUL about your recovery! I am CHEERING.I'm not an expert and I'm not qualified to have an opinion, just that it is important to HAVE experts as you do, using all the best info. Most important: they are working with you on maintaining the medical restoration and with your psychological adjustment at the same time. "I trust them" is a great gift to yourself and lets them do their job. I am so very happy for you and believe you will find new layers and insights as you progress through recovery. Many, MANY cheers!
I do trust my team, and mentally and physically, I am so good. So I guess I'm just going to take a deep breath, put the numbers aside, and let go...?! Exciting and scary! Thank you so much for your kind words Laura :-)
Exciting, scary, brave and BEAUTIFUL!